Change of plans

I have applied for a transfer to change my uni course next year. I am not 100% sure that I will end up changing by the end of this year, who knows, maybe I might grow to love jewellery when I'm done with this current project. But at the moment its one of the things that have been really making me depressed. I can't explain how or why it is effecting me this much, but it's definitely the slaving over something I dread that has a great deal to do with it.

Jewellery is cool to look at it, and I understand that jewellery can have great sentimental and ancestral value. But I don't feel it's important enough to me. I have been having the worst time trying to make my mind up about things for the last month and a half, and I can't help but feel like jewellery is making a lot of things worse for me. I stress about the project because I can't really get it done at home as I don't have the right tools, and the amount of time we have to make it means we have to stress at the last minute a lot of the time. If I changed to art theory I can literally do it whenever and wherever I want. I can go sit in the park, in the library, in the car, in bed, etc. The best part about it is that the subjects sound amazingly interesting and insightful and so do the assessments. I know I will stress the same with Art Theory as I might for Fine Arts, but there is always that element of knowing that I will get it done without having to worry so much about it as I am able to work on it whenever I want to. Maybe I'll go back to fine arts in later years of my life if I really want to. But right now I can't deal with the pressure of jewellery. I'm not obsessed or passionate about it at this stage, so I can't do it. That's all. If it turns out by the end of October that I am completely in love with jewellery, I will be very happy, though (obviously). In a sense I am actually hoping that I will grow to love it more within the next few weeks, just so that I can keep at something without dropping out. But I guess only time will tell.

Another thing I am planning on changing is my hair. I need a haircut. My boss/hairdresser has been nagging me about it for months because I have the worst ends and it's simply getting too long for it to be truely healthy. I'm going to miss my long hair but at least it can finally be healthy. Hair grows! Cutting your hair is also a sure sign of letting go of the past. I just want to feel refreshed. I guess cutting my hair is a symbol of my choice to finally make up my mind and do something about things that are making me unhappy. Even if it all sorts itself out in the end, I just want something to change about myself and my life and most importantly, my attitude towards everything.