So, here I am two years later! I am in my LAST semester of this degree. I am still doing jewellery. I love it so much more than I did in my last entry here. I never intended to stop blogging on this thing but I guess I just forgot about it. Now here I am two years later feeling like I've learnt so much more. I guess I always felt that deep down there was something greatly appealing to me about making jewellery. It doesn't really matter that I hardly ever wear it. For me it's more about working on something at a small scale, refining details, and just that whole fulfilling feeling when you finish something and see how far you've come. Jewellery, although still stressful at times, is really the only thing that actually helped me get through this really tough period last year. The only reason I hated it at the beginning was because of other problems affecting my mood, and I know this because I felt so much better about being at uni from 9-5 working on projects and feeling really good about life after it, even if I didn't get much done by the end of the day due to so many things going wrong. I learnt to just take every mistake as a learning curve. In fact, every day I would aim to make at least one mistake on things because then I would know how to avoid them next time. It's definitely more of a positive thing for me, and all the stress simply comes from trying to meet a deadline on top of being told to tweak ideas according to a lecturer's advice; something that won't ever happen when working as an actual jewellery artist, thank goodness.

I can now see myself working in a studio, hopefully sharing with a fellow artist or jeweller, and just popping out a dozen pieces a day and loving every minute of it. I still have plans to study illustration though, because that is something I feel would really help me in all areas of my future career. One thing I can definitely confirm to you, is that when things feel really really bad, they usually get better. You just need to trust your instinct. If you're having trouble deciding whether to continue with a degree at uni, and even despite all the stress you still feel like you can't just give up, then by all means you should continue with it and just come out better at it than you'll ever expect.

I'm really glad that no one reads this blog because I must sound like the biggest douchebag right now.

But I've noticed how every time I feel like I've hit my emotional rock bottom, a few years later I look back and realise how much I've grown and how much I've learnt from it. I don't believe in God, but I'm starting to understand what people mean when they say they're blessed.